Letting Go Into Uncertainty Brings Freedom!

Most of us find periods of explicit uncertainty verySo bardo is both the gap between moments and the
difficult to handle with equanimity. Indeed, the urgentmuch larger intervals that punctuate all our experience
desire to 'know' the way forward -- to escape thatof waking, sleeping, meditating, being born and dying.
uncertainty -- or change the scenario, can feel quiteFreedom in accepting uncertainty
overwhelming. It is this desire for it to be different thatPema Chodron, a wise North American Buddhist nun
causes the extreme suffering associated with theand spiritual teacher, tells us that "nothing to hold on to"
times when we know we don't know. I'm thinking ofis the root of happiness! She points to the sense of
times that we may be waiting for medical or academicfreedom that comes from acceptance that we are
test results. Or you are awaiting news from a lovednot in control and we don't "know."
one or waiting for your estranged partner's decision toGenerally we don't want to stay in that middle place of
return home or set up house elsewhere. There are so"unknowing" because it makes us feel vulnerable and
many times when we know we have no control overuneasy. However, it is by staying open and flexible,
what comes next!explicitly acknowledging our uncertainty, that we begin
As the Buddha said, "suffering is wanting things to beto access our inner strength, a strength that is based
different!" We yearn to be able to fix things; to be ableon compassion, wisdom and loving acceptance, or
to turn the clock backwards or forwards!equanimity.
Impermanence ensures uncertaintyAs Pema Chodron says, our practice is "to stay with
However, if we look carefully, we can see thethe uneasiness and not solidify into a view. We can
impermanent nature of all things, resulting inmeditate, do tonglen (the mental practice of
moment-to-moment uncertainty! Everything we canexchanging the suffering of others for our happiness),
experience, on any level of being, is constantlyor simply look at the open sky--anything that
changing. In order to feel more comfortable, we haveencourages us to stay on the brink and not solidify into
a strong tendency to think and act as though we cana view."
predict at least some of the more mundane aspectsWorking with paradox
of our day to day life. The authority figures in ourAs time goes on and my awareness of
particular culture play on this desire for 'certainty' whenimpermanence deepens as I watch my body -- and
they issue their directions and their predictions of howthe bodies and circumstances of my family and friends
things will be. The problem is that it is a delusion to-- age and change, I find myself thinking more and
believe we - or the authorities - can accurately predictmore in terms of paradox, rather than right or wrong;
even the next moment!this or that! Interestingly, allowing paradox (the
Yesterday I heard that a friend had died. He felt heco-existence of opposite ideas) to more frequently
had a touch of 'flu one night and lay down on the livingreplace my learned tendency to make 'statements', as
room couch. His wife decided to leave him there forthough I know things, has indeed brought with it a
the night. In the morning he was dead! He was a fewsense of spaciousness and possibility that feels joyful
years short of 50 and thought to be healthy.and hopeful.
'Bardo' -- the in-between stateOn those rare occasions that I allow myself to watch
This in-between period, between knowing andthe (generally bad) news of global warming, disasters,
not-knowing; between one perception and the next;war and terrorism, I am tested to maintain this open
between feeling good and learning you have lostview. I notice the definiteness with which the news and
something precious; or between learning of the deathpredicted dire consequences are pronounced and it is
of a loved person and the grieving period prior toindeed a challenge to remember how peace follows
accepting this loss, is known in Buddhist terms aswar and disasters can bring out the best in people, as
'bardo'. The term 'bardo' is often seen as the periodwell as causing enormous suffering.
between birth and death and death and the next lifeHopefully, I remember that I don't know, and 'they' don't
but, more accurately, it is the gap between thisknow what comes next. Hopefully I remember to keep
moment and the next unknown moment.my heart open and hold the aspiration for courage,
In Buddha Dharma, the larger bardos are (1) the bardosupport and skilful resolution of the challenges each of
of this life; (2) the bardo of dream (the gap betweenus face, moment to moment, in our unknowing.
going to sleep and waking up); (3) the bardo ofThe goal is to maintain a state of non-clinging
meditation; (4) the bardo of dying; (5) the bardo ofawareness and equanimity. In this state we are free,
dharmata (in plain language dharmata is the seeing asopen and happy! This is an ultimate form of stress
it really is) and (6) the bardo of existence (ormanagement.
becoming).