| I hadn't intended to go to my cousin's
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| | going to do it wrong. That it would be a
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| funeral.That sounds terrible, I know. And
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| | fiasco. That my grudge-holding family, in
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| if I had chosen to focus on the 18 year
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| | the midst of chaos and tragedy would just
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| estrangement of various factions of my
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| | pour fresh gasoline on fires which had
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| family from each other and my own 15 year
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| | been smoldering for 18 years and I didn't
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| estrangement from my uncles (hey, Greeks
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| | want any part of it.No, I just wanted to
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| are a war-like people, what can I say?),
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| | sit in the woods and meditate and not be
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| I could have patted myself on the back
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| | soiled by the whole thing. Not be
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| for the fact that I had gone to the wake
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| | irritated. Tempted to jump into the fray.
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| and let it go at that.But if you knew the
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| | Resurrect my Greek Evil Eye.You have to
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| littlest thing about me, you would know
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| | show up (you big weenie).The truth is I
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| that I recognize an inner dragon when I
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| | did know how to show up. Sure, there is
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| see one. And, once I see one, I have to
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| | something familiar about being pissed at
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| slay it. It's a sacred covenant I have
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| | my family. It's just so easy. And, face
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| with myself.And, should I get tempted to
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| | it, anger is energizing. Gossip has a
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| walk away from a soul-defining battle, I
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| | certain seduction to it. There's
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| have some very powerful people watching
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| | momentum. Criticism is so easy.But love
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| my back. Powerful people who won't let me
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| | is more powerful.Yes, it's a harder place
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| slack off. Powerful people who say just
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| | to hold. It takes work. It takes a
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| what I need to hear to remind me of how
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| | conscious conviction to stand for love
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| powerful love is and the miracles that
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| | when there are so many temptations to
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| can unfold when we Show Up.To prepare to
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| | blame, to judge, to criticize. It's
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| attend the wake, I visited with my dear
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| | easier to walk away.It's easy to walk
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| friend and spiritual Rock of Gibraltar,
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| | away until you realize that your very
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| Mike Schwass, ( He shared with me some of
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| | integrity is on the line. I'm either
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| the last conversation he had with his
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| | walking the talk or I'm not. I'm either
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| dear friend, Blackhawk's Keith Magnuson a
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| | adding to the love or I'm adding to the
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| month before he died.You have to show up.
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| | pain. I'm either criticizing or
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| Just your presence can be so powerful.
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| | educating.You have to show up. Just your
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| You have to show up.Mike has a way of
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| | presence can be so powerful. You have to
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| planting seeds in my head that grow...and
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| | show up.I showed up.I'm here to tell you
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| grow...and grow. Guru-types are like
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| | that my 15 year estrangement from my
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| that.This brought me to a lesson from an
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| | uncles has ended. We talked. And hugged.
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| anonymous reader at my blog this week:You
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| | And the one that was most difficult to
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| can criticize or you can
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| | reach, who has been estranged from the
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| educate."Anonymous reader" chose to
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| | entire family for 18 years accepted an
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| criticize my falling prey to a pervasive
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| | invitation to come to my home next
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| myth on Chinese calligraphy
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| | weekend. He even came out to the parking
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| interpretation but never gave the
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| | lot as I was about to drive away to make
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| slightest clue to how I could correct my
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| | sure I knew the best route home.My
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| path. All I got was, "sorry, you are
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| | uncle's laughter is one of my favorite
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| wrong, seeya."Thankfully I am naturally
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| | sounds of all time. It's brilliant and
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| inquisitive, so I was inspired to do
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| | silly and mischievous and infectious. It
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| research and enjoyed learning more.
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| | is the sound of everything that was ever
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| However, I could just as easily been
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| | right and good in my family. And next
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| hurt, embarrassed and defensive at being
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| | weekend, his laughter will fill my
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| publicly defrocked as my unwitting
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| | home.Laura Young is a personal
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| blunder was exposed to my readers.But
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| | development and business coach. She is a
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| since I also believe everyone is a Buddha
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| | contributing author to A Guide to Getting
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| here to teach me something I paid
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| | It: Purpose and Passion and Become Your
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| attention to what was really happening
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| | Own Great and Powerful: A Woman's Guide
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| here.You can criticize or you can
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| | to Leading a Real, Big Life. She has
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| educate.The biggest reason I was going to
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| | recently been featured on By, For and
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| avoid the funeral was due to my own
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| | About Women and Artists First Radio.
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| belief that everyone in my family was
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